nancygraced's Cancer Blog
October 29, 2007
Those words sound scary to me, they have to scare the beejeebers out of you, too! Since I’m palpable, meaning anyone who gropes your right breast can feel me (and my o my haven’t a lot of people been groping your breast these last few weeks?)this test should be simple. Painful for you, but simple. Some crazy radiologist is going to find me on an ultra sound and then poke some huge horse needle into me (that means into you, too) and remove hunks of me for testing. Sounds barbaric! Sounds painful! Sounds necessary if they are going to be sure I’m malignant. I am, by the way.
I can’t count the times they said to relax. Relax That ain’t happening until they get that needle away from here. It makes loud clicking noises as it sucks small pieces of me out of you. They’ve numbed you so you can’t really feel it so it sounds worse than it feels. They show you what I look like on ultrasound. I’m just a lump…darker gray on light gray here on the screen.
I don’t look scary, do I? I’m only 1.9 centimeters big right now, just a small marble really. I feel bigger because I tend to attract scar tissue and other junk. I’m just a little guy….stage 1 they call me. You’ll like the stage 1 part.
It’s the intermediate to high grade part that frightens you the most. That’s right, I’m aggressive! Not indolant and lazy like some cancers. I’m here, I’m active and I’m looking to grow bigger! No wonder you’re scared….
Thanks for your support - 
